16 going on... well, what?

Right now, I am eating apricots and thinking about my life. And because of the fact that I have this blog, I will now my share my thoughts with you.
As I am slowly starting to turn into a real woman (if there is such a thing), I am starting to realize what kind of conditions this transformation includes.
Women all over the world struggle with relationships, work, finance, etc and still they find their lives perfect, at least sometimes. Don´t you sometimes catch yourself thinking "Oh, my gosh I am the poorest of them all", which then gives you the impression that you are incredible selfish? I have and I don´t like that feeling.
I am not seeing anyone recently, which should´nt be much of a surprise considering that I am 16. But actually, I sometimes find it unnatural. Of course, there are times (like yesterday night) when I feel free and happy, but to be honest there are also times when I would love to have this significant other who hugs me when I feel bad. But who actually told us that this person has to be there? I know, our society is based on the concept of men meeting women, but isn`t there a better way. I mean, like for the iPhone, there is a better, new version out in the shops: which lets me think of: why shouldn`t there be something like a Love 3 G?
Tonight I am going out with M, which is kind of not what I planned. But still I am fine with it.

Finally, I got the say, that whoever will come along in my life, the one love I´ll always share is: FASHION.

Yours,
the thoughtfull ZiTa